The demons that swirl in my soul r a never ending sickness that is slowly destorying my life. I kno i can not escape them for ever.. but well enough will have to do. I dont know why but i feel that im slowly losing my grip on reality. Like my inner rage keeps growing stronger and stronger with every passing day. these feelings of depession hav me un-stable. I'm not sure wat will become of me with in the next year but i must do sumthin.. i must try to find my handle on life and grip it tight, for in fear of going completely insane... i do not expect the best.. but the worst.. do i fear it? No. No i dont fear it... i welcome it. To those who know me and care... i luv u all. but this i cannot bear. The demons spare me not, a normal life i shalt not have. A normal life... my biggest dream ever, I must dive right in and grab my demons by the horns and throw them out. Not sure as how to do this. But where there is a will there is a way and i will always find a way out. No control. No fear. Unstable and depressed i am, happy im not. These demons maybe the death of me.