I saw Mean Girls. It seemed really unrealistic to me. Yes, I did go to public school, but I really had no part in any of the drama. I'm sure it was happening, but I was so clueless and naive that I didn't see it happening. Also, it's possible that the fact that I was not a contender kept me out of the drama of our circles. Right now, at work, I'm a third party participant. I have clients who have beefs with each other and they don't know that I know almost all the members of the drama. It's pretty messy and quite silly. Girls and the rumors they start. Seriously. The most interesting thing is that most of the girls "hate" the other girls just because the boy they like happens to like the other girl. It's rather ridiculous, in my opinion.

These fights have been on my mind for a while. Through a series of events I was reminded of the Salem Witch Trials. I think this is the old school version of mean girls. If you didn't like a girl. If you thought she was going to steal the blacksmith's son from you, accuse her of being a witch and then they'd kill her. Isn't that how Mean Girls works? It's pretty bad. Of course, the girls learn it from their mothers. It's a difficult pattern to break. I wonder, were the Salem Witch accusers all just making stuff up like most girls (and their mothers) do now? At least now, the consequences aren't so...permanent.

Of course, I say this knowing absolutely no history of the Salem Witch Trials. I know they happened, or at least the history books tell us that. Wikipedia will tell us that women who were not subservient to men were often accused and thought to have the devil in them. I suppose many women would be dead today if they kept up that craziness. In either case, I wonder, truly wonder, how many girls in 7-12th grades would accuse a girl if they knew the end consequence would be death. Sadly, I think there would be at least a few that would hesitate and this is a sad thing indeed

Fangs: you have such a way with words. words are your bitches
toki_wartooth: jesus, i'm turning into a soap opera!
Fangs: hang in there...
Fangs: hang in there...
toki_wartooth: don't fucking touch me!
Fangs: ok just stop tossing your bitches at me like that chill.

Help? your asking me for help? I can't help you. you need to get off your lazy pathetic ass and help yourself. You wanna cry and bitch and moan about your pathetic life and your so called whore of a friend? Then don't be friends with her. And for what? so you can put on a fake smile giggle and agree with her but talk shit when her back is turned? If anything she should break her friendship off with you, It would seem yopu only hang with her for status anyway, so you can sink your self into her friends. Are you that desperate? Make real friends and stop bitching just so you can fish for a few stupid compliments from strangers online. Honestly what a shitty human being you are.

Hi Miss Alice
With your glass eyes
What kind of dream
Can you see?
Are you fascinated with?

Stilll
My heart tears
And drifts
Stuck in the patched crevices
Are memories

Hi Miss Alice
With that fruitful lips
To whom does love
Is cast away?
Is lamented?

Already
I spin my words
Feverish tongue
Has turned cold
The song to love
Can't be sung either

Still you do not answer

sorry I didn't write a entry sooner! I went to the doctor last friday, Just for a pap and check up since the last leep. I am still waiting for results, but I am thinking that no news is good news. we will see, or the lab is backed up. It's been a week and a day, so I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that everything is cleared up, and everything is normal. My doctor said that everything looks ok, but the truth lies in the results! Now i'm just nervous waiting, and i hate that about lab work!

I am off to have another ultrasound tomorrow so the doctor and get a recent picture before my next surgery. I am also off to Spring break tomorrow a few days at our friends cattle ranch. I am really excited relaxation no phones, tv, or doctors yeah! I will try and post how the ultrasound went before I leave. I am sure I won't find out anything new tomorrow. If I don't post have a great week everyone. Post when I get back.

The Sun is Shining, It’s warm out, there’s a slight cool breeze, and I just noticed flowers popping up around the garden! I just love them! I had to take pictures of them, so went around my yard with the laptop. :) There aren't many, but they made me smile, knowing that spring is in the air! :)
I hope everyone is having a beautiful day, enjoying the weather on your side of the world. :) With all the rain we are going to be getting over the weekend, it is nice to see the sky so blue. :)