After arriving at the hospital yesterday morning at 7am for the wife's angiogram, I spent the rest of the day hanging out and worrying myself to death. Because of some sort of emergency, she was late getting started and it was nearly 6pm before we got out of there. The news is NOT good....she has to have open-heart surgery for a triple by-pass. This has been the mountain falling out of the sky for us. Losing a another toe was one thing but, this is far more serious. The depression level has hit absolute rock bottom today. Among the problems associated with diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol levels and of course, the uncontrolled sugar levels, it has all added up to a bad, bad situation. She has already suffered one heart attack and didn't even know it (common with women w/diabetes)and could have another at any moment. January 18th is the scheduled date for the by-pass. Until then it's rest and NO STRESS! To make matters worse, Social Security won't help us even though her long-term disability benefits are two thirds what she normally gets. We STILL don't qualify. The only alternative is for me to go back to work. Great. I can't even clean the kitchen up anymore let alone find a job where I have to actually work. I'm not sure I can handle it. But, I guess I'll have to. I've already filled out four apps this morning and planning on talking to someone(s) at the fast food joints hereabouts. There are help wanted signs everywhere in Des Moines it seems. Finding work won't be hard....doing the job will be. Let's just say the COPD hasn't gotten any better....And I think I caught a cold/flu from hanging out at the hospital all day. That's why I hate hospitals. They're full of sick people. And, of course, germs seem to know I'm weak and attack from all sides. Anyway...keep us in your prayers please. These are hard, hard times for us.