It sucks when u let the past control. The present I get reminded from time to. Time it is hard but I need face it is what is and let go just need let it go I have a future. I am greatful for. That so I am just going live. In the present no. Retreats I am glad. For my friends and. Family they help me so much to get my butt up and walk and those that just listen. I am greatful I have a saying I have comed to live by you drink to drink but u don't drink to. Tumb just. My thought Vic2 out.